The following bit of writing is a speech I gave on December 21st 2018 at the Whitney Museum in NYC. I wrote this piece for an event which was part of a series called 12 Shouts to the Ten Forgotten Heavens by playwright and performer Sibyl Kempson and her theater company, Seven Daughters of Eve. I had been working with Sibyl for a few years on the themes and symbolism for these solstice and equinox performance happenings. She is a frequent collaborator, (we do the StarShine Show podcast together with Tei Blow, a link is coming soon!) and a passionate and generous human. I’ve been reminded by the sky to look at this writing again. Chiron is has been tres active these last three months, So here we are, paralyzed, held into place as we discover what hurts.
Winter Solstice 2018
Now we arrive at today. We are here. Winter Solstice 2018
Outside where everyone can hear.
Can everyone hear?
Trees and concrete and strangers, birds and river,
Can you hear?
In astrological terms, what does the sky look like today?
We’ll start with the Sun. Everything revolves around the Sun. The Winter Solstice means it’s the change of season. The days are about to get longer! The Sun has moved to zero degrees Capricorn.
Capricorn along with Crab, Aries, and Libra are the Cardinal signs, the ones we look to every Solstice and Equinox, and the ones that have influenced these performances more than any other!
These 4 directions: North, South, East, and West.
This time concept, of Dawn, Noon, Twilight, and Midnight are what initiates change, and therefore, they are both the gateways of new experience, and keepers of traditions.
If you look at the chart, which is a translation, it’s a map of the actual planetary positions transposed to a circle. If you look at it, you can see it has a heavy sixth house emphasis. There are 4 planets in the 6th house. The Sun, Saturn, Jupiter and Mercury. And Jupiter and Mercury are together, that tell us that a BIG MESSAGE that will come through on this day. Now. Today. The Sixth house, is Virgo’s house. It’s the house of slaves, the house of work. Work that is a job, not a career. Work that you do because you have to. The sixth house is the house of service. The Sun, and Saturn in Capricorn and in Sagittarius, we have Mercury and Jupiter. Across from that very tight Mercury Jupiter conjunction is the Moon, and up at the top, Chiron, Mars, and Neptune all in Pisces.
The Mercury/Jupiter is going to broadcast, and so often Mars/Neptune is duplicitous action, or creative action. Taken all together It’s rebellious, artistic. Venus is in Scorpio in the 5th is working well with that Mars/Neptune. Super creative, and potent like a seed that will mature later on. The Moon in Gemini is in the 12. So we have kind of a double thinking, double consciousness, duplicitous, 2 faced.
So what does that mean? What kind of day is it?
Confused. Can I say that? This day is confused, and certain of its confusion. It’s loyalties are divided. There is a big message which may be partially obscured.
Here are the Images that arrived:
A boss who works for his mom. Ambivalent. A new idea. Underdog. An optimist with crazy fantasies. Hard worker, follow your dreams. Faith in God. Working in foreign hospital.
You don’t know if you should, but: You are going to go to the party! (And you did go! Because now you are here with us.)
A sexy charismatic healer who heals with words. Prayers are magic spells. Mom and Dad are missionaries. Fickle unsure. A mystic fighting warrior woman, somewhat coarse. A very strong compulsion to feel that you have to hide as in clositing your feelings or beliefs. Pressure to come to terms with one’s own truth. WORK. Accomplishment. The power that money brings. A delicate untrustworthy man who is the power behind the power. Rumplestiltskin. Cross cultural pollination. The legacy of colonialism. What is the purpose of labor. A healer who has learned from other cultures. Slavery and subjugation. Slavery and subjugation giving rise to a wellspring of independence of mind. The freedom of one’s own mind as found in prison. A lot of the story of the incarcerated United States is here. Powerful alliances. Breaking free of expectation and worries at work. STEPPING OUT OF THE COG IN THE MACHINE ROLE. Unconscious giving birth to folk art. Civilization that evolves to the level that you start to decorate. Up from the roots.
That’s all for images, but that’s not all I have to say:
One of the main things that is happening in the sky now, over the next two months is Chiron is changing signs. You can feel it.
Right now, so soon: it’s the end of Chiron in Pisces, and the beginning of Chiron in Aries.
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I want to say also, that there will be a lot of waste. It will take too much time. You won’t be able to get it right. That’s it. You are doing it, move ahead.
We are all trying so hard right now to not let go, of our lives, our impossible circumstances, the reality, the facade we have constructed, and at the same time we can see that we have to. We have to tear the past in half even as part of what we are tearing is ourselves, and our desire to maintain, to have an understandable, a comprehensive structure under which, and even more importantly within which we can live.
That is gone now. You are holding it like a piece of paper and the wind will rip it from your hands and you will watch it taken from you, as the wind takes things, in it’s own time and without regard for meaning in the way you are able to understand it.
There is no constructed meaning. It’s humbling, and standing there is not enough. You will be forced to move your legs, your feet, even your arms and the rest of you. You will have to carry yourself to another place. And as you go you will see the earth reshape itself around you. New colors, new objects. No security.
On February 18, 2019, Chiron will move from Pisces, where it has been since February 8, 2011, to Aries where it will be until June 19, 2026. A new individuality is coming. We will step out of a collective sense of pain and responsibility in to a personal one.
And in order to do that, we will have to risk being seen in ways we have not dared before. Our underbelly will be showing, and we will have to stand there, and acknowledge it. YES. That is my soft underbelly, that is my fierce source of power. I will draw myself up like a warrior. I will not wait for these problems to solve themselves. Because that’s part of it, right?
We are waiting, and now, even if, even as, we are pushed out the door of the airplane, already teetering at an unthinkable, and yet absolutely logical, a measurable distance from where we are going, even if we are pushed, at some point, and that point is now, we will still have to jump. Make the choice. Not with words, with your feet, your arms and hands with your blood, split open your solar plexus to allow the new energy access to your heart. Your head will be throbbing, and you will have a headache that doesn’t leave for weeks. Let it in. Let it work it’s entire way through your body. Say YES. That’s who I am, that’s who I need to be.