Saturn/Neptune, A Beginner’s Guide 2014



Fear of Drowning, and Drowning. Both.

Just because something resonates, doesn’t make it true.

Which lies pack a seductive gut wrenching punch?
A swift idea cuts through you, and there you are, useless, flayed open,
still flopping, but only for seconds longer.
Flat on the pier, one more disemboweled fish.

Why is it you can feel those lies so keenly?
A distorted lens where everything suddenly makes sense…

It usually has to do with something that reinforces your own powerlessness.

One way or another, it lets you off the hook, there is a sense of fatalism involved.
A grandness too, a sense of tragedy, fate or destiny…

Something that puts you in your place, a safe place, and a broken one.

It freezes a moment, locks it tight in memory.
Crystallizes a thought,


As though confinement or pressurization is synonymous with distillation.
As though by locking in a concept of

~ what happened~ ~who you became~ ~what was done to you~ what was or was not
~meant to be~

You might grab a hold of it and use it,
like a book, to understand or like a hammer to break your chains.

~or no, not this time, not with a lie anyway,
the truth is good for that,(uranus/pluto syle)~

What about something else?
illogical, ridic, ordinary stuff made of dreams, or the other way around?


Saturn Neptune = Stop Lying or Saturn Neptune = Real Dreams
It’s not even that sentiment is the enemy of intellect. No.

More simple, and more uneven.
Less knowable.
almost concept-less or concept free.


What did the poet say?

*~anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive

is too small for you.~

How about this:
If you keep your sense of humor, you keep your sense.

When one is gone, you know the other one will show up missing.


What if it is impossible to see the shape you make while you make it?
What if you weave the world into being with both eyes closed and one hand tied behind your back?

What if it is not concepts that matter, but commitment
to your own compassion, integrity, follow through.
Not as in you don’t make changes to your life. Far from it.
As in you don’t give up on yourself.

What if you resolve to stay with YOU, and love you regardless?
Make the changes that your love entails.
Finish your thought, move ahead with the ordinary.

Consistency is that haze on the mountains, look there, and move toward it.
Don’t expect to arrive.

You are responsible for what you do, and ultimately most people do what they want.
To change your life, change what you want.


Desire is the color most strongly felt, and the reasons why…?
Desire for what, for whom, for what kind?

Change what you want.

Clarity is an impossible mirage these days, clarity is an imposter.
Saturn/Neptune = Reality Blurs

Understanding seduction and desire, that, we can do.
For the lover there is always more.

The other day I said. “it’s just that I don’t want anything. I’ve had enough.”
That is Saturn Neptune too. No more desires.
Rest when and where you can.

To desire again, activate your Venus by sign and house.
Want something.

If you participate, there will be a chance to give, and you need this, because giving makes you stronger.


Love YOU!!!!


For more on Saturn in Sagittarius Go HERE & for more context Go HERE


Sweet Darkness

When your eyes are tired
the world is tired also.

When your vision has gone
no part of the world can find you.

Time to go into the dark
where the night has eyes
to recognize its own.

There you can be sure
you are not beyond love.

The dark will be your womb

The night will give you a horizon
further than you can see.

You must learn one thing:
the world was made to be free in.

Give up all the other worlds
except the one to which you belong.

Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet
confinement of your aloneness
to learn

anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive

is too small for you.

— David Whyte

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5 Responses to Saturn/Neptune, A Beginner’s Guide 2014

  1. Tam says:

    That’s it! Lack of desire, t-Saturn opposite my Mars. I’m having a hard time just feeding myself, I don’t want anything. Mars in Pisces conjunct Neptune square Saturn, I’m just letting things float on all fronts, time is not of the essence….

    • o_lightning says:

      Oh Tam!

      Thanks for writing!!
      I’m right there with you… It’s a mystery! and the Mercury Aquarius Retro is ridic! I’ve had to battle wordpress just to answer your comment! Oh my gosh!!!! and it hasn’t even begun! How to get anything done?! Well… the New Moon today should help! Crosses Fingers! xoxox

      • o_lightning says:

        p.s. just thinking about you today, and hoping the new moon, is helping! xo

        • Tam says:

          Yes thank you! Air Moon is helping. <3

          As an aside I have my Virgo best friend back in my life which we spoke about last Fall, still tenuous, but teeny tiny baby steps forward. She says I told something that caused "something bad" to happen but won't say what it was. All my other friends say that is ridiculous because I'm great at keeping secrets. So I'm hoping when Neptune goes past my Sun's degree that the truth will come out.

          • o_lightning says:

            Hey Tam,

            Oh I am So Happy to hear that!! <3
            ~The truth is in there somewhere, but friendship is very very important.~ that's from my Moon square Neptune trine Jupiter. lolz

            I so hope things continue to improve. xoxo

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