Happy Friday!

That Saturn/Neptune/Mercury! Time is slipping all over the place!
I was late, I was early,
I was in the right place, at the wrong time,
I was in wrong place at the right time,

Is it safe to say I am all over the place?

This weekend looks choppy.
The best bet is to stay fairly busy and help people where you can.
Fully expect people to lie to you this weekend.
There may also be tears.

and if they are not lying?

Well, heartfelt IS also a possibility,
but you know, so is changing your mind.

Next week is a doozy!

Uranus Square Pluto exact on Monday.
Eclipse Much?! Building all week, for a Full Moon Friday Finale!
Sun into Gemini, That gives us 4 bodies in Gem.
Venus Conjunct Mercury in Gemini Square Neptune in Pisces ?
We WILL be talking about love!

I wrote a lot of heavy stuff yesterday.
If you need bones to chew, look backwards at yesterdays posts.

For Today,

It’s never too early and it’s never too late to ROCK.
this band is called Unlocking the Truth.

Love YOU!!!!

XoX

We are the sum of our burning. No burning, no being.
- John Burdett

Earlier today I wrote about Uranus Square Pluto
It’s revolutionary energy, and it is so easy to get caught up in revolutionary feeling.

I think it is equally important to remember that often, change is PAIN.
Yes, it is also sweet relief, to let go of living a lie, for example.

But,

to change inner habits,
to make contact, in hopes of a dialog with your own self-loathing,
to acknowledge the level to which fear has imprisoned your life,
to take in the scope, the vast cinematography of the number of years,
you have wasted on dreams that sold you short.
The people you held dear who never loved you, never fully could even see you.

To hold this in your consciousness,
and not deny or pledge allegiance to ANY of it: pain,
and importantly, grieving.

What is required is that you stay still enough to
fully experience and to tolerate the wretched intolerableness of your feelings.
The wave of emotion, that makes any distraction seem genius,
no matter how far fetched or pathetically stupid.

Healing pain requires a witness,
for deep internal changes one of the witnesses must be YOU.
This is not pleasant!
This is ugly painful work that will reward you a thousand fold.

In a sense, this is not about what has been done to you.
This is about how you learned to live with what has been done.

Sorrow, genuine sorrow, helps us to release.
As we cry ’till we vomit, as we shock our very souls, as we see where we have betrayed ourselves, an alchemy of liberation begins to take place.
One can feel almost giddy, knowing what could have killed you, but did not.
Being SEEN shrinks demons.
Oh they come back, but they are never as strong as they were the first time.

Something in their grip loosens,
you can breathe more freely, an opening is perceptible,
a space for change

Our biology seems to require pain on some level,
and psychology is no different.
Fire is hot, and what goes in to it,
will not be the same as what comes out.

Pain is tremendously informative, we can not make it through this world without it.
Childbirth hurts for a reason,
To bring something new into the world isn’t easy, why should it be?

Pluto and Saturn are in Mutual Reception
To admit to your human frailty, and take your place in the chain of life,
that is the work. There are no shortcuts, and on some level,
as we all know so well,
the more you try to circumvent, the longer it takes.

Experience grows you, if you can stand to feel, and inexplicably,
experience itself will not let you grow, until you CAN feel.

How long, and where do you remain frozen?
What do you need to feel?

Love YOU!!!

XoX

This is Uranus Square Pluto on a PERSONAL Level,

Will we see U square P play out globally,
in earthquakes, rebellion, accidents, and murder?
YES

But, for you, day to day, consider…

Consider letting go of who you used to be as necessary imperative.
If you don’t want to haunt yourself, as the ghost of who you could be,
Or more likely the ghost of who you were,
it becomes necessary, in these times,
to display a ruthless lack of sentimentality toward who you have been.

There is no need guard the remnants of a former personality,
to haplessly defend your inane past actions.
Instead, say simply “I was an idiot last Tuesday.”
Or “That year I was like a dog from hell.”
And then do something, actually do something to make it better to those you have harmed.This step is frequently abandoned in the rush to “not be that person.” First OWN that you were “that person”
If whoever you have harmed is not interested in you making amends, pay it forward, for someone else. You learned something. Share. Not in only in words, in actions. It’s no good going around treating people like garbage and then excusing yourself. But neither does it help to attach to a persona or actions you don’t condone. Your guilt isn’t doing anyone any favors, and it is just So Very likely to distort the parameters of whatever you try to do next!

Over the next three years, you will find yourself in strange circumstances
and strange company. Evolution is a given.
They say we evolve to suit our environment, but could it be,
that we also build and destroy and build our environments to support our evolution?

Choose. Choose as often as possible.
If you don’t like the paradigm you are presented with,
make a NEW one, and choose from there, from your new perspective.
You are not a slave to other people’s ideas, ideals, or goals.
…and you are not a slave to other people!
Uranus square Pluto means losing friends, relatives or colleagues almost by definition.
The old structure is destroyed. You must individuate!
Will this make you popular?

YES, and NO.
The only approval you need is your own.

Freedom! Don’t they say freedom comes at a price?
YES, and IT’S FREE!

Listen, you are free to abandon your own garbage, your own tired rhetoric, your own faulty logic, or anything that doesn’t make the grade. If that is no longer YOU, put it down. Step away. It’s OK to do this over and Over and OVER. Huge leaps are beautiful, and under this astro really possible, but habitual practice is what brings things into your life to stay. To be continually developing takes courage. The courage to walk away from self imposed limitation, to rewrite the story, where you see it needs to be re-written. Just because it has happened that way 135 times, does not mean it has to happen that way 136, there is a reason why it went that way so often. Find that reason, and destroy it.

Love YOU!!!

XoX

Diva Alert!

Leo Moon, trine Uranus in Aries = Automatic Reaction

You know who, sometimes, just sometimes has NO sense of humor?
It’s LEO, they can not take it when the joke is on them,
well they can but it takes a moment to adjust.

How dare you mock the royal personage?!

Then, they will, they absolutely will cheer up and get it!
All press is good press, no?

Mercury/Venus, Square Chiron/Neptune, inconjunct Pluto,

Delusional feelings of depth?
Lies that hurt you?
Are you sure they are lying? Are you lying?
Transcendent Bliss that suddenly heals old wounds?
Unlikely, but possible… no one can say we don’t have options!
What is best in this situation, or the most caring?
Everyone is a V.I.P.

Whatev!
It’s your god given right to waver between feelings of altruism and errrrrr…
Those OTHER kinds of feelings!

The rules, the deals, the plans are fluid and changing,
Time still appears to be slipping around, memories surface and recede.
No prob. Hang loose let them slip!

You DO look GOOD. That’s a good look for you, Serious!

Get your groove on!
Fun is not trivial, without it we are as dead.

Right?

Kisses!!!!!

XoX

The Moon is in Crab, but it’s headed to LEO.
Mercury is in Taurus, but it will be in Gemini tonight.

Soon, comes Motion, sparkle, and…. DANGER
Uranus Square Pluto Amping up! Mars on the South Node.

You DO have old biz to take care of.
The past will not be forgotten so easily, and what about
MONEY/SECURITY/COMFORT?
What about what happened last Thursday and into the weekend?

Relax, Breathe Easy,
there is only so much you can do.
Besides going ballistic, (it would be kind of beautiful to see that, I’ll admit)

what was it? Oh yeah, Breathe Easy,
don’t substitute food/old habits for action, or for self expression.
Say what you’ve got to say, or move on.
Changes are coming, and as they do, over the next weeks and even YEARS,
…..No the Cardinal signs don’t really catch a break,
instead they, and everybody, learns to be Heroes.
This right now is HERO TRAINING.

Love YOU!!!

XoX

The Moon is still in Crab, but with Pluto opposed, and Uranus Square.
Cardinal T-square anyone?

It’s what’s for breakfast!

Expect some emotional shockage.
There will be distractions, to help you surf through, or to get in your way…

We do have Saturn trine Neptune for some fortification,
I always think of that as time travel or bending time to our will,
I’m a freakshow, yeah, I know it!

Better yet: Making real (saturn) your dreams (neptune)
you could apply appropriate boundaries,
or find just the right vehicle for something ethereal…

Art? Music? In Taurus season you could even be gardening or cooking…
A lot of people have been talking or thinking about $ lately
that tangible expression of Value.
Our relationship to money is never separate from our relationship to LOVE.

Value. That’s a Taurus topic.

something to think about….

Love YOU!!!

XoX

Grand Trine in Water today.

The Moon is in Crab!
Saturn, Neptune, Chiron and the North Node all flow through.
Do you have family biz and family feeling on your mind?
Is there something at home you need to handle?

Maybe you could enjoy the process…

Is there something or someone at home to ENJOY?

This week Neptune goes ahead and Squares Venus.
Slippery slopes, Disappearers, Enchantment,
at times closely followed by… disenchantment…
how many sides to that story are there?
Howevs, I DO like Venus/Neptune! Pass me those rosy glasses!

I have to say,
the Boswell Sisters sound eerily current, and on point!

Good day to see the best in everyone.
It’s even a good day to cry about everything you need to cry about, and then to go for a walk and watch a beautiful sunset, should such a thing come your way.

Do not sign contracts today if you can help it,
there is not a lot of ~the whole truth and nothing but the truth.~ available in May.

We may catch a day or two, but in general, things play out over time.

Your Eclipse zone just keeps on comin’ on.
Whatev that was for you, don’t expect it to be over.
As Mars hits up those points: Lights Camera Action!

Mercury moves to Gemini on Wednesday, and you know Venus is there already!
Let the Games Begin!

Uranus Square Pluto is only becoming more exact.
Take care! Honestly, no unnecessary physical risks!
And if you want to make a huge change, this is your Astro!

You know that children’s game “Mother may I?”

Well, You MAY! hahaha! The last thing you need is my permission!

But doesn’t it feel good to get the go-ahead?!
even from a random stranger?!
People are always trying to slow you down, but NO.
If you know where you need to be headed, make a solid plan, and GO!

Get out of here! Get a move on! Hurry it up kid!

don’t wait for Saturn or Pluto direct…
they will catch up and finalize things soon enough!

Love YOU!!!!

XoX

Harsh Transits of Pluto.

Pluto transits are not one size fits all.

Pluto in easy aspect to your natal chart can be clarifying,
empowering, sustaining, and rewarding.
Particularly if you have a good working relationship with your Pluto already.
You can be nourished at a deep level and increase in power, capacity and DEPTH.

Anyone who has ever been loved by a Scorpio
or serious 8th house type, will know just what I mean.
This is not about those transits.

This is for the unsuspecting, the blindsided,
those who darkness follows for it’s own deep mathematics:
This Post is for the HARSH TRANSITS of Pluto.
Pluto as Kali. The devastator, and the re-maker of lives.

Let me explain,

Once upon a time, I thought I could make something happen,
by force of will, by hard work, by following through, by taking the steps,
by doing my best,
not giving up…

are you laughing yet?

I thought it was like a bargain,
I know what I want, I’ll do my bit…

Having a Harsh Pluto transit is like being two years old again.
If you can not have another popsicle you want to lay on the floor and die.
only it’s not a popsicle,
It’s everything you have ever wanted, all you have worked for your entire life,
the only sacred corner of your psyche, defiled and destroyed.

Thrash and scream, or just sob quietly, it makes no difference.

The embodiment of a perfect dream.

You will not be receiving this dream,
Because it is not for you.
As it turns out, you do not know best.

Pluto brings you in contact with POWER.
Real Power. Both your own, and the power of God, Reality, Nature
however you call this force, that lifts houses in the wind and smashes them on rocks.
The tidal waves, destroyers, those who can only be thought of as villains and forces of evil,
murderers rapists, torturers, slow bone cancer, and sudden death
and in all this,
you will see your part.
Pluto will show you your own face in the mask of your destroyer.
If you have been selfish or small,
there is no protection for you, and then again,
there is simply no protection.

Floods, Disease, we find meaning for them.
The scope of creation and destruction is what our lives are made of,
and at the same time, beyond, far beyond.

Take a min to consider what is out of your control,
it’s stunning.

Pluto is corrective, if you have lost your way, she will find it.

~Her lotus feet upon the heart of Lord Shiva, prostrate in utter bliss. The eye on the blade of Her sword: the terrifyingly wide-awake clarity which swiftly cuts away all that needs to be cut from our lives. Kali’s destruction is imminently creative. The death She brings is the birth of real knowledge.~
Kali

It goes like this.. According to reality,
My dreams were not big enough,
they were outdated,
they encapsulated me too tightly
and held me too close…
If I were able to realize them, I would have needed nothing more. Fulfilled?
Over. In a sense, finished.

Do you think that Pluto wanted me to live?
and in order for me to live, my life had to die?

Pluto is reductive,
bargains with God, become smaller and more encompassing.
…to live another day…or I can not stand to live another day.

An attempt to negotiate a relationship with your life force,
it is that implacable face you must make your peace with.

People say, you break your heart to break it open.
There are as many ways to break your heart, as there are hearts to break.

You break your heart to OPEN yourself to the strength
of what you there is inside you to lose.
So Much! You are vast. There is so much to lose!
It’s astonishing!

You are forced to come in contact with the only thing inside you
that will not die, and build your life around that:
your power.

Once more,
You are forced to come in contact with the only thing inside you that will not die,
and build your life around that, wait… while blindfolded and trusting in who?

trusting in YOUR life? The very one, that has just been annihilated?
your individual life and your dreams?

No. That is much much to small. Those days are over.

To collaborate with the invisible architects of our lives,
we have to live in the midst of uncertainty,
to continue co-creating with forces beyond our control.

Who you are when you have nothing.

Who you are when you have nothing turns out to be vast.

Your ~Self~ can neither be encapsulated
nor insulated from the bloody heart of life.

God? Reality? Life?
Uncertainty, which is safety itself, trust?

In a very strange sense, we are asked by Pluto to turn the other cheek
when we are slapped. Arguing gets you nowhere, you have to accept,
and move on, in the light of what you know NOW.
There is a clear before and after. The past is gone.

As you start to heal, to regain your sense of your place and proportion,
the smallest signs show up to guide you.

Watching a shell being turned to sand, is that shell what this ocean is?
Can there be a separation?
Nothing but life.

a heart shaped rock washes up on the beach…
another feather from the jay above you
… this may or may not be a sign.

Breathing slows, that popsicle has long since melted.
you may live out your whole life and never have another, well, if so, then so.

Pluto moves elsewhere, your life begins to coalesce,
to fall in line with your beating heart,

still alive still breathing.

You breathe around and through your questions,
steady, unsteady, as a flame
the core of what you are, revealed.
Uncertainty a promise, to live out in faith.

XoX

How are you liking your Eclipse?

For some it’s a bit of a bumpy ride,
While others sailed on through.

The take away could be your relationship between
your goals and your appetites,
or to put in another way between what you want, and what you need.

as ye olde KRS-ONE said back in the day
-Make sure you have all the things that you need.
Put at a safe distance all the things that you want.
It’s the WANTS that get you in to trouble.-

This theme keeps on keeping on for a bit.
North Node in Scorpio:

You are being invited to invest in yourself.
To bring your passions in line with your values.

I said that the other day, and DAMN if it doesn’t get truer by the second.
It takes self-control. That’s what it takes.

It’s not too late to climb back on the wagon if you fell off,
it’s not to late to congratulate yourself on making it through
by the skin of your teeth.They call them temptations
because they are tempting newsflash

Remember way back back when I talked about Snow White and the poison apple?
Sometimes you have to eat the apple to meet the prince.

Or should I say,
Sometimes what seems like a detour, is the only way to get where you are going.

Saturn + Pluto RETRO: People from the past,
what is their role in your life today?

South Node in Taurus:VALUES!
Who gives you What?!
Remember Scorpio’s gift is Energetic, while Taurus’s gift is Physical.
Double Trouble Kittens, Double Trouble.
This continues to develop over time.
Venus and Mars have a tale to tell here:
as Mars Conjuncts the Sun, on it’s way to the Twins,
as Venus moves toward marked territory in Gemini,
let’s see what plays out!

Streamline the process where you can,
it’s not a crime to get it right the first time,
you go farther faster. FACT.

On the other hand:
experience, it’s what grows you from an acorn, into a freakin oak. M-kay?

Love YOU!!!

Totally not too late to set your intentions! Do it To it!

Kisses!!!

XoX

Happy New Moon Eclipse!

Taurus rules the throat, you knew that!
Those lovebites are from Scorpio!
ALRIGHT?

I made a movie for YOU!!!

Have a BEAUTIFUL Day Kittens,
I’ll be thinking of you!!!
don’t forget, the seeds you plant will GROW!!!

Kisses!!!

XoX

p.s.

yeah! <3