May 22, 2013

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Mercury conjunct Venus and Square Chiron,
amped up by Uranus in Aries and inconjunct Pluto

Sudden, deep, and painfully insightful thoughts on the nature of love?
Small sudden reminders of our own biology, like a fly in the soup?
ewww gross!
The Moon will be in Scorpio before too long.
If you can open up and connect with someone you love, it might be a good idea.
Sometimes just being near is enough, if the words are missing…
if words come to you, even better.

The tendency is to keep things separate for now.
To talk about what is pleasant and to ruminate privately about what is deep.

Helping others is a good way out of your own head…

Doomtreeeeeee!

Uranus Square Pluto in full effect.
Every day we die and are born anew. Today is no different.
Happy birthday!
Make it a good one.

this beautiful poem is by Linda Pastan:

What we want
is never simple.
We move among the things
we thought we wanted:
a face, a room, an open book
and these things bear our names —
now they want us.
But what we want appears
in dreams, wearing disguises.
We fall past,
holding out our arms
and in the morning
our arms ache.
We don’t remember the dream,
but the dream remembers us.
It is there all day
as an animal is there
under the table,
as the stars are there.

Love YOU!!!!

XoX

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May 21, 2013

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Why is it, that no one can help you with your problems?
Not really REALLY?
Why is it, problems exist as long as other people live and breathe?!
kidding!

We know there are accidents, true horrendous disasters. and the one constant, you.

Oh and there ARE people you know living out their lives without any shred of regard for you,
or worse, maybe they even think you are an idiot!
And if you stand there long enough with your mouth open in wonder
at the sick synchronicity of it all, you may even come to agree with them.

No Matter. They have to be them, and you get to be YOU.

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Conversely, why is it, that the more you learn about what you can not,
or will not do, about your limitations, the more FREEDOM you have?

(jupiter, saturn, chiron, uranus, neptune, pluto)

Why is it, that the less you drown in other peoples dreams,
the more free you are to pursue, hunt down, and if necessary stab in the dark,
your OWN dreams.
You have to be willing to pin down even a corner, while the rest takes flight…

You can’t know how it will end. That’s just it…you can’t.
It is the motion, that brings relevance, and vitality to your enterprise.
Your vision will change and with it your plans, and goals.

There is no use holding yourself in place, there is no you to hold,
you are evolving energy, beautifully alive and alight.

Why is it, that the more you honor the miracle of your breath,
your own relevance, the more you see the inescapable face of the divine
in the animate and the inanimate all around you?

There is no ~out there~ it’s all an in here. You are it.
We have to eat to live, and I have heard that science can measure even a carrot’s scream as it is pulled from earth and cut.
Life hurts, and we by design, participate.

Accepting reality without a battle gets easier with practice,
it comes hand in hand with accepting there is a place for you in this world.

But not one fixed place like a refuge, oh no!
Anyone who has watched any fantasy knows that the king’s men always make their way into the forest to find you. Or the evil villain sets your cottage ablaze.

Yes, you have to see something through, especially now,
under these skies, but what is completion?
You’ll know when you are done.
You don’t have to play by someone else’s unwritten rules.
Use your mind to think.
Change the script.

Can you be true to yourself if you don’t know what you are worth?
Never mind.
I think by being true to yourself,
you will begin to find out what you are worth,
and it will matter less and less,
What matters is that you take the steps your heart requests.

Trust in your connection to the divine.
Trust in the vessel of your body to navigate these choppy waters.
There is a place for you.
Right here. Right here in your life.
In your life in motion.

Jupiter is getting closer and closer to Venus.
We may get a slap, or even a shove off a cliff, but we will also, somehow, get a kiss.

If you want to read about the astro, go here, here, and here.

Love YOU!!!

XoX

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May 20, 2013

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Eclipse Week and U + P = ?

Meanwhile…

At this very moment, the Sun is at 29 Taurus!
Gemini is getting the party started with Mercury, Venus, and Jupiter!

yes yes U. square P. exact!

Beautiful FOOD + Infinite Choices Happiness!
and you can do it all without cooking a thing!

Virtual eating is FUN!

By evening the Sun is in Gemini, by afternoon the Moon is in Libra!
more or less, depending on where you are.

Listen to this absolute dorkfest and watch it inexplicably grow on you…

~Grow on you~ is such a bad turn of phrase.
It makes me think I am going to mold!

Or how about this for later in the day….

Pretty and somehow tense, with the Moon under pressure,
as if there is only one way to play it.

Not so.

Keep your dialog light, and dress the part for whatever you are up to.
If you find you are torqued too tight…

Love YOU!!!

XoX

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Gemini/Sag Eclipse + Uranus Square Pluto 2013

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Is it just me, or does people telling you not to panic make you feel panicky?
was I supposed to panic?
or how about this one?
~RELAX~
does anyone in the world still say that to anyone else? shhh…
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Uranus square Pluto?

Check!
No matter how you prepare for it, Uranus Square Pluto is always a surprise
you have to cope suddenly, to clear the way forward, as if a lightning storm knocked down a big dead tree in your path, perhaps a big interpersonal dead tree dynamic

Eclipse?

Check!
I kind of like the Eclipse. It’s got a lot going for it.
Jupiter brings gifts and will teach us something about Traveling On…
Eclipses have a surprise element in there too!
Just think of it as a big Full Moon, which it is!


At the end of the play, the house lights (Moon) comes up,
you see who was sitting with you there in the dark.
You meet your friends backstage and they tell you how the play really went
and then you go out for a drink and a snack and wander around!

Results!

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If milk gets spilled, well it was time to wash the floor anyway
Words people have waited a long time to hear are likely to show up this week.

…is some of it delusional? Sure. But some of it is NOT!

Whatever wants to leave this week:
Goodbye Goodbye!!!
No hanging on. Those are the rules. Bend them at your peril.

You ready to innovate?

Why go right ahead then, innovate. I double dare you.

Peeps will be stressed though,
and not everyone may catch on to your genius right away.
No worries.
You can still be in your workshop,
Chatting with the neighbors and
hammering out the details of your dreams.

It’s not a week to subjugate your genius, but it won’t due to push buttons either,
or wait for applause. Do what you do, and detach when and where you have to.
Attention spans are short and this is a long awaited
solution/conversation/understanding/awareness/ CHANGE

does that cover it?

We harken back to 2008 (pluto in cap) + 2010 (start of gem.sag.eclipse cycle)
Don’t Yell at Anybody
at least not if you can help it.
Cardinal Signs have official permish. to take 5 and breathe as needed.
Meanwhile, as the saying goes ~Do you.~
and while you do, remember that love, generosity, and proper boundaries
are widely regarded as qualities rewarded over time.

This week is a bit of a journey,

It’s a reverse little red riding hood story.
We start out battling the wolf at grandmas, and we wind up home with a basket of goodies, and a journey ahead of us. Just watch your step, the woodsman has an AX, and YOU have a sexy red coat!

Heed your dreams, and watch time bend and slide around
like a six year old in slippy slidey socks.

You can go pretty far if you have enough room!

Kisses!!!

XoX

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May 18, 2013

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As the stellium in Taurus breaks up,
have we all learned how rotten it feels to be stuck?
That we are willing to move forward,
even imperfectly, if it gets us out of this stalemate.

Have we learned what we value, and what we are willing to pay for it?

Scorpio insists that we pay in blood, but you know what? It’s not a bad deal!
How else are you going to pay?
I mean really, REALLY, this is it:
Your one and only shot at riding the merry-go-round as you!
May as well make it count!

Can you look in the mirror and say to yourself
~I will never forsake you.~?

give it a try.

I learned that one from Elsa, many years ago.

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Under the Taurus pile up, I learned what I really think of money.
I LOVE IT! Surprise~ Well, honestly it’s more complex,
but I learned how I need to receive it,
~ freely~
is there such a thing? and what constitutes a fair trade.

What was Taurus trying to tell you,
staring deep into your soul with beautiful dewy eyes?
What was Taurus telling you,
stubbornly refusing to see the other side of the argument?
What was Taurus trying to tell you about your body,
and how it receives comfort?
What was Taurus trying to tell you about pleasures and compensation?

What kind of seed was brought to germinate under these very fertile skies?

Things Change!
Gemini wants to talk it over.
There must be development, exchange of ideas, and there must be play!

Love YOU!!!

XoX

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May 17, 2013

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Happy Friday!

That Saturn/Neptune/Mercury! Time is slipping all over the place!
I was late, I was early,
I was in the right place, at the wrong time,
I was in wrong place at the right time,

Is it safe to say I am all over the place?

This weekend looks choppy.
The best bet is to stay fairly busy and help people where you can.
Fully expect people to lie to you this weekend.
There may also be tears.

and if they are not lying?

Well, heartfelt IS also a possibility,
but you know, so is changing your mind.

Next week is a doozy!

Uranus Square Pluto exact on Monday.
Eclipse Much?! Building all week, for a Full Moon Friday Finale!
Sun into Gemini, That gives us 4 bodies in Gem.
Venus Conjunct Mercury in Gemini Square Neptune in Pisces ?
We WILL be talking about love!

I wrote a lot of heavy stuff yesterday.
If you need bones to chew, look backwards at yesterdays posts.

For Today,

It’s never too early and it’s never too late to ROCK.
this band is called Unlocking the Truth.

Love YOU!!!!

XoX

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The Uses and Mechanics of Pain

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We are the sum of our burning. No burning, no being.
- John Burdett

Earlier today I wrote about Uranus Square Pluto
It’s revolutionary energy, and it is so easy to get caught up in revolutionary feeling.

I think it is equally important to remember that often, change is PAIN.
Yes, it is also sweet relief, to let go of living a lie, for example.

But,

to change inner habits,
to make contact, in hopes of a dialog with your own self-loathing,
to acknowledge the level to which fear has imprisoned your life,
to take in the scope, the vast cinematography of the number of years,
you have wasted on dreams that sold you short.
The people you held dear who never loved you, never fully could even see you.

To hold this in your consciousness,
and not deny or pledge allegiance to ANY of it: pain,
and importantly, grieving.

What is required is that you stay still enough to
fully experience and to tolerate the wretched intolerableness of your feelings.
The wave of emotion, that makes any distraction seem genius,
no matter how far fetched or pathetically stupid.

Healing pain requires a witness,
for deep internal changes one of the witnesses must be YOU.
This is not pleasant!
This is ugly painful work that will reward you a thousand fold.

In a sense, this is not about what has been done to you.
This is about how you learned to live with what has been done.

Sorrow, genuine sorrow, helps us to release.
As we cry ’till we vomit, as we shock our very souls, as we see where we have betrayed ourselves, an alchemy of liberation begins to take place.
One can feel almost giddy, knowing what could have killed you, but did not.
Being SEEN shrinks demons.
Oh they come back, but they are never as strong as they were the first time.

Something in their grip loosens,
you can breathe more freely, an opening is perceptible,
a space for change

Our biology seems to require pain on some level,
and psychology is no different.
Fire is hot, and what goes in to it,
will not be the same as what comes out.

Pain is tremendously informative, we can not make it through this world without it.
Childbirth hurts for a reason,
To bring something new into the world isn’t easy, why should it be?

Pluto and Saturn are in Mutual Reception
To admit to your human frailty, and take your place in the chain of life,
that is the work. There are no shortcuts, and on some level,
as we all know so well,
the more you try to circumvent, the longer it takes.

Experience grows you, if you can stand to feel, and inexplicably,
experience itself will not let you grow, until you CAN feel.

How long, and where do you remain frozen?
What do you need to feel?

Love YOU!!!

XoX

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Uranus Square Pluto

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This is Uranus Square Pluto on a PERSONAL Level,

Will we see U square P play out globally,
in earthquakes, rebellion, accidents, and murder?
YES :(

But, for you, day to day, consider…

Consider letting go of who you used to be as necessary imperative.
If you don’t want to haunt yourself, as the ghost of who you could be,
Or more likely the ghost of who you were,
it becomes necessary, in these times,
to display a ruthless lack of sentimentality toward who you have been.

There is no need guard the remnants of a former personality,
to haplessly defend your inane past actions.
Instead, say simply “I was an idiot last Tuesday.”
Or “That year I was like a dog from hell.”
And then do something, actually do something to make it better to those you have harmed.This step is frequently abandoned in the rush to “not be that person.” First OWN that you were “that person”
If whoever you have harmed is not interested in you making amends, pay it forward, for someone else. You learned something. Share. Not in only in words, in actions. It’s no good going around treating people like garbage and then excusing yourself. But neither does it help to attach to a persona or actions you don’t condone. Your guilt isn’t doing anyone any favors, and it is just So Very likely to distort the parameters of whatever you try to do next!

Over the next three years, you will find yourself in strange circumstances
and strange company. Evolution is a given.
They say we evolve to suit our environment, but could it be,
that we also build and destroy and build our environments to support our evolution?

Choose. Choose as often as possible.
If you don’t like the paradigm you are presented with,
make a NEW one, and choose from there, from your new perspective.
You are not a slave to other people’s ideas, ideals, or goals.
…and you are not a slave to other people!
Uranus square Pluto means losing friends, relatives or colleagues almost by definition.
The old structure is destroyed. You must individuate!
Will this make you popular?

YES, and NO.
The only approval you need is your own.

Freedom! Don’t they say freedom comes at a price?
YES, and IT’S FREE!

Listen, you are free to abandon your own garbage, your own tired rhetoric, your own faulty logic, or anything that doesn’t make the grade. If that is no longer YOU, put it down. Step away. It’s OK to do this over and Over and OVER. Huge leaps are beautiful, and under this astro really possible, but habitual practice is what brings things into your life to stay. To be continually developing takes courage. The courage to walk away from self imposed limitation, to rewrite the story, where you see it needs to be re-written. Just because it has happened that way 135 times, does not mean it has to happen that way 136, there is a reason why it went that way so often. Find that reason, and destroy it.

Love YOU!!!

XoX

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May 16, 2013

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Diva Alert!

Leo Moon, trine Uranus in Aries = Automatic Reaction

You know who, sometimes, just sometimes has NO sense of humor?
It’s LEO, they can not take it when the joke is on them,
well they can but it takes a moment to adjust.

How dare you mock the royal personage?!

Then, they will, they absolutely will cheer up and get it!
All press is good press, no?

Mercury/Venus, Square Chiron/Neptune, inconjunct Pluto,

Delusional feelings of depth?
Lies that hurt you?
Are you sure they are lying? Are you lying?
Transcendent Bliss that suddenly heals old wounds?
Unlikely, but possible… no one can say we don’t have options!
What is best in this situation, or the most caring?
Everyone is a V.I.P.

Whatev!
It’s your god given right to waver between feelings of altruism and errrrrr…
Those OTHER kinds of feelings!

The rules, the deals, the plans are fluid and changing,
Time still appears to be slipping around, memories surface and recede.
No prob. Hang loose let them slip!

There is plenty of tension to feed into if you want it.
Don’t go there! Stay over here! lol!
Make the decisions, the changes, just plainly and then buy a new outfit,
get your hair did, play dress up, DANCE!

You DO look GOOD. That’s a good look for you, Serious!

Get your groove on!
Fun is not trivial, without it we are as dead.

Right?

Kisses!!!!!

XoX

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May 15, 2013

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The Moon is in Crab, but it’s headed to LEO.
Mercury is in Taurus, but it will be in Gemini tonight.

Soon, comes Motion, sparkle, and…. DANGER
Uranus Square Pluto Amping up! Mars on the South Node.

You DO have old biz to take care of.
The past will not be forgotten so easily, and what about
MONEY/SECURITY/COMFORT?
What about what happened last Thursday and into the weekend?

Relax, Breathe Easy,
there is only so much you can do.
Besides going ballistic, (it would be kind of beautiful to see that, I’ll admit)

what was it? Oh yeah, Breathe Easy,
don’t substitute food/old habits for action, or for self expression.
Say what you’ve got to say, or move on.
Changes are coming, and as they do, over the next weeks and even YEARS,
…..No the Cardinal signs don’t really catch a break,
instead they, and everybody, learns to be Heroes.
This right now is HERO TRAINING.

Love YOU!!!

p.s.

Remember we do not have all of the info!
Neptune is active! Wait and keep your ears open to ongoing developments!

XoX

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